Happy 24th birthday to me tomorrow!

Happy new year everybody! Hope you have enjoyed your 2008.

Merry Christmas everybody! :)

Hope you're spending a good one.

I know I would be.

Was in Taipei for the past 9 days for my well-deserved getaway from this sunny island. Initially, this trip was really to get away from certain things/people, but eventually, the meaning of this trip became a bonding session with friends.

It's only when you pack up your bags and leave, you realise who you are leaving behind. There were nights that were really torturous to sleep through, but thank god for the pills that helped me through some nights. The first few days were okay - but it was in the middle, towards the end that the missing just became a little more unbearable.

It was also through these 9 days that you really know who really mattered to you - it has slowly transform itself as a need, rather as a want. Also realised that I cannot travel with everybody, and that there are some people I have a low tolerance for.

It was a great trip overall. A lot of laughters, fun, food, sight-seeing, shopping... also a lot of missings, thoughts, and a heavy heart at times.

It was great.
But for the first time, I was happy to be back.

I love you.

I hope my love is enough to suffice.

Is it?

我被你感动了.

You really don't deserve me.

I'm really glad you ended it.


分开是一种解脱

It felt like just last week that I celebrated towards being able to gain entry to a club.

It felt like just yesterday that I celebrated towards being able to watch adult films.

And now.. it's less than 2 months to my quarter-life crisis.

When did we stop celebrating getting older?

我們都哭了 沒有值得不值得

就在這裡停格 框住最好的顏色

讓我們最難過的 是因為曾經快樂

後來的轉折 我們都無法預測

只能這樣了 繼續下去又如何

就當上了一課保留被愛的資格

Yesterday, I bade goodbye for real to the 4 years that we have been together - all the ups and downs, and everything. I think it has come to realisation that things are not going to be the same after the break up, and that he should also understand the plight I am going through.

I sense regrets in the words, but it's ironic yet true: some people never learn to treasure until they have lost it. Later I'm going to pack up some stuff up, and keep them somewhere. I don't think these things serve as of any meaning anymore, and letting them lie around would be a waste of space as well.

It's been a good 4 years, even though the break up hurts back then. I think I have grown a lot, emotionally and mentally... and I realised that if one day the man you are with no longer love you for who you are, no matter how much you change for that man, he'll never be satisfied.

You left me so you could seek for freedom you wanted and I hope you'll be happy.

So let me now go seek for the love that I want.

I still love Carrie's line - "I want a can't-live-without-you love."

I took the first step yesterday and today.

I started saying 'No'.


But on the side note, I really miss Maomao & Lucky.

While I laugh away with my friend about how stupid some taiwanese love dramas can be, I think the reason why I laughed at it is because I know it'll never happen in my reality.

Dramas make falling in love so easy.

Everything ends someday. It's only a matter of time.

Even my hamster died 4 hours ago. I touched its body. It was still warm. It was only a matter of time before he would pass away.

When one thing ends in your life, the rest of the events end slowly after that. It's like a chain effect.

There was a period of time I did not want any pets, because it'll die someday.

I don't want to lose anything anymore.

I think I've lost enough for now.

一點點想哭泣一點點想著你
我總依賴著你的記憶

从前从前,有个人爱你很久,

但偏偏,风渐渐,把距离吹得好远,

好不容易,又能再多爱一天,

但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜

我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经

你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份包容你也接受他

你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

Zhang Dong Liang is my Prince!

as of right now,

i really hate my life.

How come none of my friends in my friend list is updating?!

:(

Anyway, is my bird cute? He's bobby. <3

i think my obsession with lipbalms have to stop!
i've got like 10+ lipbalms, and i'm still using my first one!

goodness.

Today is the first day that I saw them, and their uniform.

The school looks quite big, even have its own track field, but I doubt there's much students in it, cos it's like the first year they are operating.

The uniform.. is ugly!!!
Goodness.
The uniform consist of a P.E. T-shirt (or rather Polo tee) material, with a light green shorts/skirt. And there's no pleats to the skirt or what, but there's 2 ugly BIG pockets like those in your cargo jeans at each side of the skirt/shorts. Then there's this school badge that happily states, "NUS HIGH SCHOOL (of Maths and Science).

I bet all these kids are going to grow up to be Einsteins or something.

Anybody using Benefit's blush/highlighter - Dandelion?

I'm quite tempted to get it..
But it costs a whooping USD26, and kind of expensive for a blusher only.

:(

http://jeffmilner.com/backmasking.htm

songs being heard, that when turned backwards, they reveal some sort of 'satanic messages'

go check out the first song 'stairway to heaven'!

Also, found the full backward lyrics to Led Z's "Stairway to Heaven". Here it is:

Hear why its sung here, oppositioner..
Allll on track, all arriving
They all sing, and they are one.
Shall I loathe you now, parishoner?
Oh hear Him, Christian within me.
It stirs my sin; the river,
Oh, she swells with our lousiness.
All my life will end for him?
We're all out of signs,
I know I'm sorta shocked
To hear The Lord,
My God now will save me!
Oh I will n'er be saved,
Because I live with Satan..
One wish today;
That you'll all pray for
Three who will make it here late.
Pray now and you'll see..
The 'Lord' turned me on,
But, oh, I was the shaggy fool..
Clothed in agony,
Lost at a height.
There's no escaping it,
Nor his woes..
So here's to my Sweet Satan.
The other's little path
Would make me sad,
Whose power is faith.
He'll give those with him 666.
And all the evil fools,
they know he made
us suffer sadly.
Ohohohoh...
"Family won't get loose,
They're offered me."
Always soothes the worker.
Always will be as we know now
"I see ruins," said he,
"the world they offered me?
Who wished the Lord's fall?"
If we lose feather,
Say you'll save me!

And no wimps can bend the rules..
And no wimps can do..

Hunt next to the shore,
'Cause they see all from there,
See here's the news,
Who walks with mute grief!
Perhaps no-one found thee...
"Heavy, lift me out,"
Spake the Reve,
"Someday, failed, we'll lose one line-up,
They've gotta leave forsaken."

And no wimps can do..
And no wimps can do...

He, who say the lords
Thoth have our laws,
Maat must be superb. Mass is ended..
Over there,
He who should learn thee.
Any moot that serves by my sworn music,
I wish it with snow be shushed,
All for my mass's sake.
Hear why its sung,
here, oppositioner, Ohh..
He who should show
May make his show worthy,
To look, for us, odd.. sickly,
There's one chance - take his show.
Hold thy head,
Hear why its sung here. oppositioner.
Who owns this earth built below?
Oh sweet Israel...

() Rocky Horror Picture Show
(1) Grease
(2) Pirates of the Caribbean
() Boondock Saints
(3) The Mexican
(4) Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
(5) Neverending Story
() Blazing Saddles
() Airplane
() The Princess Bride
() Young Frankenstien
() AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
() Napoleon Dynamite
(6) Saw
() White Noise
() White Oleander
(7) Anger Management
(8) 50 First Dates
() Jason X
(9) Scream
(10) Scream 2
(11) Scream 3
(12) Scary Movie
(13) Scary Movie 2
(14) Scary Movie 3
(15) American Pie
(16) American Pie 2
() American Wedding
(17) Harry Potter
(18) Harry Potter 2
(19) Harry Potter 3
(20) Resident Evil I
(21)Resident Evil 2
(22) The Wedding Singer
() Little Black Book
() The Village
() Donnie Darko
(23) Lilo & Stitch
(24) Finding Nemo
(25) Finding Neverland
() 13 Ghosts
(26) Signs
(27) The Grinch
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre
() White Chicks
(28) Butterfly Effect
() Thirteen Going on 30
(29) I, Robot
() Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
() Universal Soldier
(30) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came Polly
(31) Deep Impact
() KingPin
(32) Never Been Kissed
(33) Meet The Parents
(34) Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
(35) A Cinderella Story
(36) The Terminal
() The Lizzie McGuire Movie
() Passport to Paris
(37) Dumb & Dumber
(38) Dumb & Dumberer
(39) Final Destination
(40) Final Destination 2
() Halloween
(41) The Ring
(42) The Ring 2
() Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(43) Practical Magic
(44) Chicago
() Ghost Ship
() From Hell
() Hellboy
() Secret Window
(45) I Am Sam
() The Whole Nine Yards
(46) The Day After Tomorrow
() Child's Play
() Bride of Chucky
(47) Ten Things I Hate About You
() Just Married
() Gothika
(48) Nightmare on Elm Street
() Sixteen Candles
() Coach Carter
(49) Bad Boys
(50) Bad Boys 2
() Joy Ride
(51) Seven
(52) Oceans Eleven
() Oceans Twelve
() Identity
() Lone Star
(53) Bedazzled
() Predator I
() Predator II
(54) Independence Day
() Cujo
() A Bronx Tale
() Darkness Falls
() Christine
(55) ET
() Children of the Corn
() My Boss' daughter
(56) Maid in Manhattan
() Frailty
() Best Bet
(57) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(58) She's All That
() Calendar Girls
() Sideways
() Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
() Ever After
(59) Forrest Gump
() Big Trouble in Little China
(60) X-Men
() X-2: X-Men United
(61) Jeepers Creepers
() Jeepers Creepers 2
(62) Catch Me If You Can
(63) The Others
() Freaky Friday (both versions)
() Reign of Fire
(64) Cruel Intentions
() The Hot Chick
() Swimfan
() Miracle
() Old School
() Ray
(65) The Notebook
(66) K-Pax
(67) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(68) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(69) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(70) A Walk to Remember
(71) Boogeyman
(72) Hitch
() The Fifth Element
(73) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(74) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
() Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
() Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
() Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
() Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi...
() Troop Beverly Hills
() Swimming with Sharks
(75) Air Force One
() For Richer or Poorer
(76) Trainspotting
() People Under the Stairs
() Blue Velvet
() Sound of Music
(77) Parent Trap 1
(78) Parent Trap 2
() The Burbs
(79) The Terminator
() Empire Records
() SLC Punk
(80) Meet Joe Black